If you’ve spent any time at the DMV, one thing you have probably learned is that waiting is difficult, and while it may be a virtue, it is a virtue that few have the aspiration to learn. This is an odd, yet exciting time of year. Thousands are looking for work as they have completed high school, college, or graduate study programs, that now has them feeling prepared and equipped to enter the work force. However, though a person be well equipped and eager, that does not guarantee that an employer will grant you opportunity. Thus, the waiting game.
The entire job search process is entangled with waiting. You find a job opening and submit your resume, then you wait. You hear back from them, submit further information or samples of your work, then you wait. They call to set up a phone interview, you wait for the interview, then afterwards you do more waiting. Now, I am aware that this may not be the typical corporate model for hiring, but in churches, which is where I am looking, the search process is extensive and moves along with all the finesse and speed of a tortoise. Who could blame them? If I was in their position I would do the exact same thing. Few things could be more miserable than hiring a staff member at a church who is not the person God has for the job.
My position as of right now is a little bit awkward. I graduated from Dallas Seminary last month and was left with my part-time job as an associate youth minister, but even on a part-time basis, the summer schedule was simply not conducive for job hunting. So, after much prayer and reflection, my wife and I decided it was time to step away from student ministry and await what God has for us next. When we agreed to this, we were well aware that there was no guarantee that I would find a job in the near future. In some ways we fell like Abraham and Sarah, who left their home and went to a new land, even though they didn’t know where they were going. Now we find ourselves in this odd in-between stage that mixes the feelings of not knowing what’s ahead with feelings of loss. A little over a month ago I was busy, but doing what I love—pursuing further education and working in a church. Now? I’m doing neither of those things and I’m not quite sure what to do with myself.
Waiting. That’s what I’m doing, and as uncomfortable as it is, God is still preparing me. My formal education may be over, but there is an opportunity to continue to grow in knowledge and passion as I seek what’s ahead. All that said, I don’t want to waste my waiting. I could very easily veg on the couch all day and watch Friday Night Lights, but I want this to be a time of prayer, reflection, and preparation as I wait. That means continuing to press in to Christ, while growing in my understanding of the Gospel and who I am in light of it. I don’t pretend to know how long I must wait, but my hope is that God would mold me so that when his place for me comes I will have the eyes to see it.
So, if you find yourself in a similar predicament, don’t waste your wait even though you might feel like you don’t quite know how to react. These seasons are filled with anxious thoughts and swirling nerves, but it doesn’t have to be a time wasted.